THE SHORT VERSION 😉
I Lost everything
In 2017, I was looking at the most beautiful sunset I had ever seen. Such beauty was also present with immense pain.
It felt like I had lost everything. I had lost my Father, a huge rock in my life and a few years earlier I woke up to a belief system that I was raised in from a child.
I felt aimless. In relation to the belief system, I was discovering new things, exploring different beliefs, I should have felt free, like I had escaped a camp but instead I felt lost - like I was floating in a life raft in the middle of a sparse ocean.
Waking Up
I am a truth seeker at heart. Leaving my belief system behind revealed to me that "structures" in my life that I viewed as real were actually conditional. We literally lost family and friends because we decided not to believe the same as them.
I was not interested in conditional love / friendships any longer. So I started on a search for God, a search through my pain, a search for who I really was as a person. So we travelled and met people and challenged ourselves and explored.
Searching outside
In my search, I did what every person does, I read, I meditated, I cried, I laughed and kept exploring and testing.
What I discovered is that is nothing new on the earth, the new gurus or the old writings all have wisdom, but what I discovered most importantly that it led me back to my inner wisdom.
Perhaps it was my aversion to being a cult like follower of a guru or leader, or perhaps it was my experience in the marketing world where I saw a lot of snake oil salesmen, however I realized that I had to be my own guru.
I love to hear all opinions, I will still read and try things, but I always come back to myself to check I am not outsourcing my spirituality or consciousness to another person. These days I seek a guide / sherpa to help me or direct me but I do the walking.
What I Learnt
This world is full of richness and beauty.
I discovered that our lives are made up of stories. Some of those false and some true. These stories that we have chosen to accept fashion our experience in life.
They can also contribute to thresholds that hold us back, shame, emotional triggers and explain the reason we make decisions or respond a certain way to specific situations.
I learnt to challenge any fear or trigger that arose and to challenge the false stories around it. In this journey (that is continuing), the unravelling led to re-authoring new stories. I now live a life more in flow, am continually expanding my purpose, and have discovered the person that was hidden under layers or false stories and shame.
So What Does That Mean For You
It is my hope, that through my sharings, you find ways to unravel and re-write your false stories. I want you to discover your amazing self and fall totally in love with that person. When that happens you will light a fire and then spread that light with others.
The amazing thing about our consciousness is that we don't need to walk the same path of discovery, if you have read to this point, I have faith that your inner wisdom will guide you to your path.
Next Steps
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